May 5th- And So It Begins

LOCATION: TORONTO, RESIDENCE ROOM PRIOR TO MOVE-OUT

So this is to be my Japan journal in which I hope to recount my amazing (*fingers crossed*) adventures in Tokyo this summer. Holly told us at the safety departure workshop that a journal is a good way to ward off anxiety and depression and it makes for a good read when you get back. Jess said she made one for her trip to Italy and let her parents read it when she got back. I haven't decided who will get to read this or how faithful I'll be to writing it, but I'll give it a whirl. Holly also said that the trip doesn't begin when you're on the plane, that it begins with the beginning of your thoughts about the trip. I picked up my acceptance letter from Nihon Daigaku at the ISXO today. The embossed letterhead and official sounding typed words made me very happy but also nervous as hell. I've been having weird dreams lately- my flight being late, nobody meeting me at the airport, talking with the other students in very articulate Japanese. This whole experience will be something completely different and new- I don't like different and new! I'm scared of doing poorly, that I won't have fun, that nobody will like me, that I'll get lost, that I'llspend all that time worrying about money! How do i tell myself it won't happen? Mike and everyone else keeps telling me that it'll be fine but I hate being scared and worrying about money.

Sometimes I wish I wasn't going so I wouldn't have to worry, could stay in AR or TO and make money, hang out with friends. But then again I wouldn't get to travel, something I've always wanted to do, dreamed of doing.

Mom and Dad are here tomorrow to get the move-out process started.

bed!!


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